Today on Square Piece, I’m sharing a little piece of my heart toward Brian because I think there’s a chance that some of you might relate to the sentiment. Hopefully I’m not left with the sound of crickets at the end.
Lately I’ve been kicking myself for my behavior toward you. There’s been too much sarcasm on my part, too many bitter expressions, too much bossiness and too much discouragement. My greatest desire is to be your biggest cheerleader. When you consider your daily accomplishments, I want you to be able to recognize my support.
While I know you love me with all your heart, you’d be too kind to pretend that I haven’t been falling short lately.
I’ve been a crabby patty.
Lack of sleep? Sure. But if I won’t let you use that as an excuse, then neither can I.
So I’d like to reiterate the point that I made earlier to you this afternoon. It’s Sunday and I know that you’re always exhausted after helping before, during and after church; so you might not even remember that we had this conversation. (See? I even snapped a picture of you passed out on the couch.)
I’m repeating this for both of our sakes:
If you never changed for the rest of your life… If you never matured in thinking or in faith… If you never lifted another finger to improve your health or well being… If you never found your socks, your slippers, your glasses, your wallet or your keys… If you never improved your memory or improved your time management… If you kept every single habit that you presently have today… No matter how much I critique, suggest, sigh, point out, request, nag, explain or question, if nothing changed from here to eternity, you would still be the best husband for this wife and I would still consider myself blessed.
In James in the Bible, we’re encouraged to be “quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry.” It’s safe to say that I’ve been failing at all three of those lately. So I’m gonna try to pray that for myself and hope to be more more of an encouragement this year.
🙂 Simply humble and beautiful!
No crickets here! Beautifully written Suzy!
I really relate to this post. I feel like I am so quick to complain or nag my husband.. All he ever wants his a hug, snuggle, or kiss. I need to pray on this as well! Some days taking accountability for my actions makes me upset with myself because I don’t know what I’d do without that man.
Me too Suzy.
My life verse…works in every relationship
Beautiful. I imagine his nap was all the sweeter after hearing you affirm him like that.
How wonderful to put your feelings in print for the world to see. Validates your apology and records your resolution for the future. True demonstration of love and unselfish expression and definitely what’s called ‘giving of yourself’. The greatest gift.
It takes a very special person to own up to their short comings as you have here, Suzanna, much less in front of the world. You deserve a lot of credit and so does Brian. Keep those wheels on life turning.
I’m right there with you Sue. I have been a hot mess lately. I wage war on myself and Rach is always there to encourage me and pray for me. I have been so “snarly” at times recently. We did have a chance to get to the root of my problems and I know what I need to work on. It’s damn near impossible to get the results that I want but I know what adjustments I need to make in my mind. Lordy Loo that will take me a lifetime. Brian is a good match for you. So glad that you all made it through the tough spots. I’ll pray for you. I blamed mine on our earthly father and his insane ways, the winter blues and my pride. All in all excuses are crap. You’re right. No excuse. I love you Sue. One of my favorite verses are that His mercies are new every day. Thank you God for that. A fresh day untouched by my filth.