If I could go back in time and change one habit of mine, I’d tell 16 year old Square Piece to park farther away from the entrances of public establishments.
What I didn’t know until a few evenings ago is that sometimes there are people who (1) have stood all day, who (2) have worked all day, who (3) have aching feet and legs, who (4) are experiencing back pain that is worse when seated in the car, who (5) are four and a half months pregnant and who (6) are feeling kinda depressed about needing to hunt down support hose who juuuuuuuust miiiiiiiight appreciate parking closer to the mall entrance than I would.
Now, I can’t be too condescending and judgmental about perfectly healthy individuals who scope out prime parking spots, because I certainly have never been the exception. You’d have to call me a hypocrite if I pretended like I couldn’t recall being one of “them.”
All I know – and this *may* have been hormonally influenced – is that when I saw a man my age beat me to a parking spot that might have been five spaces closer than mine, I. Wanted. To. Cry. Granted, it only took me an extra ten seconds to walk the difference, but those were ten miserable, woe-is-me filled seconds. (I mean, seriously, what if those extra, pavement-pounding steps are the ones that cement my varicose veins?!)
Now I’m stuck somewhere in the middle. Do I park farther away for the sake of the even more pregnant women? The even more emotionally distraught basket cases? Or do I take advantage of a few more weeks of self-entitlement?
One thing is for sure, I’m still too insecure to succumb to the judgement that I might receive in the Babies-R-Us parking lot. No matter how many signs they post in the best parking spots for “expecting mothers,” until I look like I’m really, really, really obviously expecting, I’m caged by the insecurity of someone seeing me and thinking that I’m taking the best spots from the poor, little pregnant ladies.
How twisted is that? I want to park closer everywhere else except the one place that ushers me right to the front.