Will I really feel a love for Bennett?
This was a legitimate concern that I had throughout the pregnancy. I have a history of being detached and cold sometimes, so I was worried that perhaps I might treat Bennett the same way. So many mothers have gushed over that moment when a new mom births her baby and realizes that a love exists that she’s never known. I wasn’t sure how extravagant the firework display would be, but I was really hoping to at least experience a spark or two.
If you think about it, it’s kinda like an arranged marriage (from the woman’s perspective). You get what you get and hope for the best for the rest of your life.
Well, I’m here to say that not only do I love my son, but I really, really like him, too. There are feelings of delight, joy, protection, amusement, adoration and pride (just to name a few) all balled up into this deep care that I have for him. What a relief! What a blessed arrangement we’ve come into!
Let’s see here… Bennett is officially 12 days old now. So that means I’ve probably kissed him just a total of 5,728 times by now, give or take a few.
Here’s Bennett being weighed on his birthday:
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Had no doubts that you would fall madly in love with him.
Knew it would happen.
He’s got the “I’m OK mom” hand up on the scale. He’s too cute!
An average of 477.33 kisses per day or 29.83 kisses per hour each day….if you sleep for eight.
I’d say he’s convinced and secure. In fact, I’d bet on it.
1. He has no awful habits to break
2. He has good genes
3. He’s gentle and sweet
4. He’s soft and pliable
5. He is not negative and has a sponge-like attitude toward life….as in ‘bring it on’!
Lots better than an arranged marriage.
He’s truly amazing. <3
I don’t get the “history of being detached and cold”… instead, from the moment I met you, I sensed an incredible warmth. I’m guessing you may have held back toward people who you feared might hurt you (HELLO – that’s called “self preservation”). You are truly one of the believers where I sense God’s love.